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Confession: Put cat to sleep?
Posted by shar5514 on January 29, 2003 at 08:02:22:
Im sure my post won't be very welcomed, but I have been struggling with this thought for
4 months now.
I inherited a 14 yro male from my boyfriends mom who moved out of state. I didn't want him
to begin with, but b/c Im a sucker for kitties, he of course wormed his way into my heart and
I took on ALL his burdens. He's a pee'er. Floors, carpets, clothes, counters, washers, computer
stands, --- you name it, he can pee on it. I battled it, when my boyfriend tossed him out the door
to make him 'run away' I saved him. His hair is falling out in places, or he's pulling it out. He
suddenly, last year, went from a very fat cat to losing a lot of weight. We discovered he didn't like
dry food any longer, so we went to wet food. His rib area is 'thick' but his stomache area thins out
A vet said thats a sign of age, along with the hair falling out. His eyes looks 'glassy' to me, although
I don't notice them giving him a hard time. Now I've noticed that kitty litter clumps to the bottom of his
feet, between his paws, and seems to just grow. I can't remove it, it almost looks like a growth. It took
until last night for me to realize it was kitty litter.
This cat breaks my heart every time I think/look at him. He loves me to pieces, following me around with words
to speak. Im the ONLY one that has kept him going with feedings, love, litter cleaning, baths (he smells bad) etc.
Problem is Im almost 8 months pregnant. I can't contiue this. Its SO much work, I feel he's so old, I worry he's in
pain, and I know I don't spend enough time with him. He and his brother mostly must stay in our kitchen area because
I can't allow them upstairs in our new carpeted bedrooms to 'pee' on things. I just cant take the chance on the baby's
stuff. Im a wonderful cat mom, really I am, but I must admit it would be easier to have the vet tell me he has a diesease
and put him down. I would greive, feel guilty, and eventually feel better and my house would start to have a 'normal' smell
again. That may sound horrible, but 2 litter boxes are cleaned 3x a day, wet food feeding, his looks, his age, THE SMELL,
(i should invest in stock of natures miracle) I've thought of finding him a new home, but who would take on such a burden.
I love the 'odd' looking cat, he breaks my heart when i look at his face, knowing I have these thoughts.
I will take him to the vet, again, I just want a normal life, with out mopping 3X a week, cleaning litter poop marks off the floor,
searching for 'accidents' everywhere, putting up baby gates so cats won't/can't get upstaris (which is becoming harder to for me
to climb over with my expanding belly) feedings, guilt of not enough attention along with the fear there is something more wrong
with him and Im not doing enough, but not having the $ to do all that I probablly need do to keep this 14 yro going.
I guess im looking for someone to tell me that Im not horrible because he's wearing me down, more so with a baby on the way. At
what point do you draw a line between the love of your pet and your own sanity? Its no win for me I think, I always feel guilt if
something is majorly wrong with him, but at the same time I need someone to tell me it's ok for me to breath a sigh of relief when I
know hes not in pain and I can get back to life.
I know others have gone through hE** with thier sick kitties, belive me, my simease had feline luk and had to be put down in Nov.
This is not easy for me.
Shar
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